Okay, so it’s been a while. By a while of course I mean months and months so if there’s anyone out there that’s even slightly interested in what I have to say, there’s a lot that the world needs updated on.
But, first and foremost the most drastic change has been my move from the United States to London, England. Of course there are a million and one things that go into picking up your life and moving to a new country, but it has always been said that the biggest risks yield the biggest rewards.
For those of you that don’t know this, I met my boyfriend when we were 14 and 15 at a hotel in Orlando, Florida. Naturally, I was a super awkward, slightly chubby, far less confident version of myself than I am now. To make things even more embarrassing, my best friend was 5’7 with legs up to her shoulders and blonde hair that seemed to give her some kind of superpower when it came to attracting boys. What’s even way more embarrassing is the fact that I found it acceptable to wear a blue and green leopard AND zebra print monokini… if that’s not a rough visual then I don’t know what is.
Flash forward to years of facebook messages, snap chats, terrible relationships, and the whole fad of rhinestoned MissMe jeans, we’re now living in my favorite place in the world in a two-bedroom apartment steps away from my favorite coffee shop. Basically what I’m getting at here is life is INSANE. As a little girl you dream about all of these fun things happening in your life and everyone always tells you they’re possible with some cheesy cliche, but here I am actually living it.
Sure, there are about thirty thousand other little decisions and circumstances that led both of us to this point in our lives, but the fact of the matter is that we’re here – living and loving every minute of every day. In my life I’ve never really had this kind of unconditional love and support that I get from Buddy (yes, that’s his real name and no it’s not a joke) and that’s something that continues to push me day in and day out.
The bottom line of all of this random babbling is this: While I have had an incredibly blessed life, not everything is rainbows and ponies. I’m a real person with real problems, and truthfully a lot of things that have gone on in my life aren’t exactly rose-tinted fairytales. But, we’re all given things in our life and we are the only ones that have the power to determine how those events will shape our futures. I will never use anything that’s happened as an excuse to see the world in a negative light. There will always be more incredible things going on than bad, and no matter how someone else would view events and challenges, that’s how I’ve gone about living for twenty-three years.
Bad things happen to people and bad things happen in life. That has and will always be the case. Why don’t people talk about these things? Do people really believe what they see on the internet hasn’t been edited, FaceTuned, and manipulated to put the best representation out there? I have been guilty of this and it is something I’m not ashamed of because I also see the value of being raw and vulnerable.
So here’s what I’m aiming to do – Three times a week I’m going to post things – good, bad, ugly, anything in between. Some people may not like that, which is totally fine. Some people only want to see happy moments in life. While there are hundreds of those every day, it’s important to talk about the not so glamorous side of life because we can’t all just pretend that it doesn’t exist. With this new little pet project of mine I’m sincerely hoping that by sharing my experiences, someone out there in the world can take what I’ve learned and apply it to their own life.
I’ve never really been one to seek anyone else’s approval or be scared of how “society” views the things I say and believe – so get ready for some truly candid talk about some truly candid shit guys – it’s gonna be fun!
*totally random things*
- I’m typing this on my boyfriend’s laptop and while I’m devastated it isn’t a Mac, I’m more devastated that all of the keys are in different spots than they are on a U.S. keyboard so it’s taken me fifteen extra minutest to get this done
- whatever I write in this blog is 100% my opinion, and while I welcome all opinions and schools of thought – any rude/negative/insulting comments back to me will not be accepted
- Currently in England it’s 42F and raining. It’s 5:15 p.m. and the only time I’ve moved from bed is to make myself a cup of tea
Truthfully, I am PUMPED to get this going again. Writing down all of my thoughts and sharing them with you guys really does bring me great joy and I hope that it may inspire some of you to let down your guard a bit and see that being vulnerable and open is beautiful!!
yay for feelings and opening up my life for the whole internet world to see! 🙂